Curiously searching

I have a dream, that one day I will be doing a multi-disciplinary research on a government project that will impact the lives of many people in a good way. I will be doing the legal and environmental research of the project and will ensure that the project will actually benefit them in the long run.

That’s a dream. But here I am, trying to figure out how to get there someday. Right now, the decisions I have been doing are based on a very simple mathematical formula: get the possible monthly salary, then multiply that with the number of months in a year. But I realized that this does not include the God factor. The fact that blessings will follow you, when you are in his will and that the numbers will not matter because his provision is more that sufficient.

So the question is, what is His will for me? Right now, I am not quite sure yet. But I do remember being prodded to try to get into government service. It is a riskier decision. At first, I thought trying out the prestigious and big firms was the risk, but then I realized that trying out the firms is actually the safe route. Because that’s a place where people tend to go after law school. Yes it may be a risk to try the big firms, but trying to get into government service, with its low pay and utterly uninspiring offices is a bigger risk. But this could just be me trying to be different.

But this is just from my point of view. My decision will also have to take into consideration the people around me.My decision will have a great impact on the lives of the people that matter to me.

I am yet again left in limbo. I have never been quite good at handling transition stages in my life. This is one of them. But I will just wait. The answer will soon come.

I am hoping to graduate by April, and I am excited to work fulltime as a law graduate and eventually as a lawyer. I am not alone in trying to figure out what career path to take. I am not one of the fortunate few who gets invited to dinners with law firms and listen to the compensation packages that they have to offer, and the scholarship loan opportunities. I do have quite an idea of what I want to do, and the field of law I will concentrate on, but the question is – where do I begin?

It is so much easier to plan and think of the many things I want to do when I finally become a lawyer. It is easy to see myself living and working in different places in the world, doing the developmental research that I want to do. It is easy to see myself getting a masters degree in international financial relations, information communications technology or international environmental law.One or all. Or some other field not among the three.

But I have to start somewhere, and I want to start ASAP. Some of my friends are willing to wait for the bar results before they get a job. I want to get the ball rolling at once. I will probably give myself a month to rest after the bar, but that’s it. I’d go crazy if I have more than a month of vacation.

As of now, I have no options to speak of, no offers, no applications. But I do hope to find a job that will allow me to do my research and writing especially with developmental issues, and environmental issues. I have never thought of factoring in money, but travel opportunities will be one of my top considerations. I do not mean that will accept a job that just pays minimum wage, hell no. But I just know that monetary considerations will just be a minor factor, especially when I get to do the things that I want to do. Plus, I think law should not primarily be a moneymaking career. It is nice to have money, but there are more important things.

I want a job that would help improve my research and writing skills. Travel too. And see the world and make the most impact to it, to  make the lives of people better.

I am quite anxious about my career options. I just really hope there’s something out there for me.