Quote, unquote October 24, 2009
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When God uses you in a powerful way, you better get up even earlier to seek Him. When God blesses you, you better pray even more. And any measure of success God gives you better result in seeking Him even more.
Bold faith is all about getting painfully specific in what you are asking the Lord for.
All from Mark Batterson.
What matters most October 24, 2009
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I have a dream, that one day I will be doing a multi-disciplinary research on a government project that will impact the lives of many people in a good way. I will be doing the legal and environmental research of the project and will ensure that the project will actually benefit them in the long run.
That’s a dream. But here I am, trying to figure out how to get there someday. Right now, the decisions I have been doing are based on a very simple mathematical formula: get the possible monthly salary, then multiply that with the number of months in a year. But I realized that this does not include the God factor. The fact that blessings will follow you, when you are in his will and that the numbers will not matter because his provision is more that sufficient.
So the question is, what is His will for me? Right now, I am not quite sure yet. But I do remember being prodded to try to get into government service. It is a riskier decision. At first, I thought trying out the prestigious and big firms was the risk, but then I realized that trying out the firms is actually the safe route. Because that’s a place where people tend to go after law school. Yes it may be a risk to try the big firms, but trying to get into government service, with its low pay and utterly uninspiring offices is a bigger risk. But this could just be me trying to be different.
But this is just from my point of view. My decision will also have to take into consideration the people around me.My decision will have a great impact on the lives of the people that matter to me.
I am yet again left in limbo. I have never been quite good at handling transition stages in my life. This is one of them. But I will just wait. The answer will soon come.
Surprise, things didn’t go according to plan October 16, 2009
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Whenever I do certains tasks, I tend to be quite methodical about it. Like waking up a certain time, doing a certain thing first before another or doing a certain thing a certain and particular way. More specifically, when I planned to start applying for jobs, my plan was quite simple. Make my resume, then go to the firms, drop off the resume, go home, then wait for the interviews. Simple. But that didn’t happen that way.
My resume will not print itself, so I have to have it printed. However, for some strange reason, a friend’s printer won’t work, or the day before that he did not have paper. So postpone sending my awesome resume. I have to believe it is awesome, otherwise, no one will. So I had to have it printed at SC. Done. Off to Makati.
I also did not try run my shoes. No one does that or I never do that. After months of just sitting and reading, my formal shoes was left forsaken in its box but I never realized these things have an expiry period or abandonment issues of their own. I realized this just after an hour of walking. I looked at my shoe and it was smirking at me. Horror. I lift my right foot and lo and behold, it was not just a smirk, it was the most horrible looking grin a shoe could make. I just said to myself, and to my shoe, “Kaya pa yan!”. I was supposed to buy some super glue but didn’t pursue the thought because I hoped it would last until I got home. So the trip around Makati with friends still continued and finally it was done. I looked at my shoe and it was still grinning but not to the point of embarrassment. I can still hide its evil grin.
Just when I thought my shoe was going to last until I got home, I was proven wrong yet again. The moment I got off the train I realized that it was already making a slapping sound against the floor. I tried to ignore it but the more I walked the louder it got. When I finally checked, its mouth was wide open like a kid on a destist chair having his molars extracted. Gaah. I was a block away from home, but I just kept saying to myself that at least it happened after submitting all my resumes. I tried my hardest to walk with the useless shoe and by the time I got home, the shoe’s jaw was already dislocated, dislodged and was a total wreck.
After all that adventure, I really hope those resumes get me somewhere. As of now, I will massage my feet and find a way do somethine with that right shoe.
